Today was one of those days where you're going going going non-stop and then it's suddenly almost 11pm and you go "Crap! I didn't dance yet!" It's actually funny because I did pretty much nothing but think about dancing all day. I had my breakthrough, finally! It took a long conversation with Matthew and some letting go of thought and going downstairs to fix up my dance room some more. And boom! Once I got back upstairs...there it was! Thank goodness!
So just now, when I realized that, crap, I hadn't danced yet, I came to another realization: I'm way too tired and I don't FEEL like dancing, at least not in the "moving my body" sense of the word. So I did something else. I put on one of the most beautiful pieces of music that I've ever heard ("Transformation" by R. Carlos Nakai and Peter Kater), and I sat wrapped in a blanket with my eyes closed and I let my spirit dance. I've never been able to meditate in any kind of traditional way, but if this, if sitting still while my spirit moves, is meditating then I should think a regular practice would be easy as pie. The music flowed past me, all trickling rills of piano and Native American flute (SO beautiful), and I pictured the dance I would do if I could. No holds barred, no physical limitations, and no end to the gratitude I felt for the ability to do it. It was wonderful.
Sometimes I think we need to let our spirits dance on their own and see how far they soar. And, don't worry, tomorrow I'll be dancing with my body as well as my soul.
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